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So it's been less than a month since the last time I updated, and not too much has really happened I suppose. I think I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to go back to school next semester, but I'm going to save up some money so I can move out and go back to school up in Vermont possibly. I'm completely sick of being treated like a little kid at my house, and I'm almost to a breaking point of where I just want to leave right now and not give any notice to anyone as to where I'm going.
Things at home are quite stressful, since I'm hardly home ever, and me and my father still don't speak to each other. It also doesn't help that I have to pay off my car once it's out of the garage (a nice $3000 I might add), and yet again I don't have a car to drive. This past weekend I was driving up to New London to visit Justin and my dad's car blew up. Well the engine blew. Or something. Ugh...
So I'm not entirely sure if I have to pay that off or not, cause that's also going to need a whole new engine. *sigh*
I really just can't win lately.
However, I am making pretty good money at Chilis, which is fantastic. It feels EXTREMELY nice to have money again after being completely broke for two months. I won't have all that money for long though.
Off to the subject of boys...to make a long story short, I want to be with someone that is pretty much off-limits. It's kind of a long complicated story, so I won't bother putting it in here, since it's kind of a private thing. If you know me and actually read this then ask me about it. :]
On another note, the semester is almost done(thank god). I can't wait to be on vacation for a month, and to make ridiculous money and start working on the fashion line Maria wants to do. Maria is a very cool girl, I work with her at Chilis. We have a lot of fun and smoke and go out all the time. It's a nice change of pace from what I'm used to.
Well i suppose I should do something other than procrastinate(like always).
much love! ♥
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[31 Oct 2007|05:33pm] |
it's halloween.
i haven't updated this stupid thing in 19 weeks apparently. i honestly don't really have time to update anymore, with work and school and all that jazz.
i have a new job, i work at chilis now. it's amazing. i loveeee the people i work with. and the bar trainer. OHHHHEMMGEEE. lol. he's gorgeous.
and i think he may want to date me. not sure yet though, it's still in the works since he's still at our store. so everything has to stay on the DL.
the only thing thats kinda weird is that he's 29. but i don't really care at this point, because he'll probably treat me better than any other guy.
blehhh. anyways, life is ok. chino is still a douchebag. school sucks. work is great. i guess that's all for now.
<333kait.
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[15 Jun 2007|11:56am] |
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...or maybe, i'm just not good enough to be called someone's girlfriend.
i think i'm just going to go lesbian, and forget about the concept of being someone's girlfriend. cause it just doesn't seem like anything is going to go anywhere anytime soon. i'm almost to the point where i want to give up.
ugh. i don't like being in this bad mood lately. not so much fun. especially the part where i can't sleep.
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[14 Jun 2007|12:37am] |
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have you ever felt like something in your life is amiss?
that's how i feel.
things just don't seem...right, lately. and i don't know why.
"Do you believe you're missing out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?"
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[23 Apr 2007|04:10pm] |
mmm alright I've been pretty bad with updating this thing. I'm pretty sure i haven't written in here in at least two weeks.
But I suppose it's because nothing interesting has really happened. I work, and go to school. That's about it.
Although this past weekend was fun. I ended up going to a couple bars with this guy from one of my classes on Saturday. He seems to like me I guess, but I'm not really sure. That was a lot of fun, and I got to meet Chelsie's cousin, which was really weird lol. It's a small world I guess ahaha. The only downside of going to all these bars all night was that I got like no sleep and I had a pretty bad hangover all day. That was kind of shitty.
ughhh i have to go to class now. fuckkkk. <3
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[11 Apr 2007|12:01am] |
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sooooo the past few days have been interesting.
I made out with Justin's friend Aida, and got pretty drunk at the Great Friday frat party. Jason had an awesomely fast car, but it blew up. I spent most of my weekend with him, and it was a lot of fun. :D I did wayyy too much driving this weekend though, and its catching up to me, cause my body is just tired from driving all the time. But besides that, my weekend was pretty fantastic.
This week, I have work, work...mmm more work and lots of school. I'm not too thrilled about either, but I guess I'll just have to deal with it. The semester is almost over, but it feels like it's dragging right now and I just want it to be done and over with so summer can finally be here. I just really want to go to the beach all day every day and get nice and tan, and go visit friends in VT and Maine and wherever else they live lol.
No boy news today, I'm pretty much at a standstill right now, and I'm kind of content a little with where I'm at I suppose. I'm still a little lonely though :[ Oh well, I can deal with it. They're only boys.
I should try and sleep at some point...g'night <3
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[04 Apr 2007|11:23pm] |
tomorrow is going to be a bad day.
i can tell already. :o\
on a side note, I met a new boy, his name is Zach. he's cute. and nice. & a little on the crazy side(well he used to be), but that's ok.
taylor introduced me to him. we've been talking a lot, and it's nice. we'll see what happens though.
i miss my friends up in VT. i really really miss chelsie. she's by far one of my closest and best friends. fuck man, i miss everyone up at school. it was so nice the last time i went up there and saw everyone, cause i actually felt at home.
*sigh*
i can't wait for this week to end.
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[01 Apr 2007|07:42pm] |
remind me to never eat at Quiznos ever again.
i don't ever want to get food poisoning of whatever the fuck i have ever again.
today has been kind of shitty. jason's been taking care of me though, which is really nice :]
so yeah. that's all.
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[29 Mar 2007|08:30pm] |
Hollister SUCKS!
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[26 Mar 2007|12:02am] |
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Oyyyy. This week is going to SUCK.
BUT i get to hang out with Kris tomorrow night(possibly), which will be nice since I haven't seen him in like 2 years or longer.
And I'm also maybe thinking about taking a road trip up to Farmingdale NY on Wednesday to see Madina Lake again. :X I'm kind of obsessed[with Nathan]. He's reallllllllly pretty. I know that seems kind of childish, but he actually remembered me from when I saw them in Burlington, which was a while ago, and he paid attention to me when I went to talk to him and stuff and he waited for me to come back before they left. Cute stuff like that. Maybe I'm only fantasizing, but to me it seems like he almost might like me a little? I don't know, it's wishful thinking on my part. It would totally make my life to date a guy from a semi-famous band though. If I had the money I would totally follow them around the country and be their merch girl or something. lol, that sounds lame, I know. They're so awesome. NO I'm not a groupie. Thanks to Justin who decided to call me a groupie right in front of Nathan. Ugh. Not cool at all.
On another note, I'm really not sure what the Jason situation is looking like right now. I've been totally honest with him about everything, and I haven't hooked up with any guys besides him since like...December. I just don't really know what his feelings are towards me. Yeah he tells me that he misses me and stuff, but I don't know if he wants to be with me, have some sort of casual thing going on, or if he wants to date me again. I'm really not sure at this point in time. So I guess I'll just have to wing it for now and see where things go. Cause it would be nice to date other guys if I actually got the balls to do something about it, but I don't really see that going anywhere anytime soon. But hey, ya never know, right? Maybe I'll get my groove back and someone amazing will come along and I'll be like, "hey, wanna go out sometime?" pffft. Yeah right.
Anyways, this week is probably going to be the death of me. Ohhhh I can't wait.
♥kait.
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[24 Mar 2007|10:50am] |
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So I'm pretty excited for today, because Justin agreed to come with me to the show tonight. I can't WAIT to see Madina Lake :D
Seriously, I hope Nathan remembers me, cause that would totally make my life. He's soooooooooooo hot. lol.
I'm not at all excited for 398530495703465 hours of class though. I'm going to be so antsy the whole time because I'm just going to want to leave and go to the show.
Yeah not much to talk about today. I'll update when I get home from the show :D
love, Kait♥
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[22 Mar 2007|01:14pm] |
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Ok...I'm definitely going to try to make an effort to write in this every day and to make almost all my posts public.
I slept until almost 1 o'clock again today. SUCH a waste of a day. I think it's because of my horrendous cramps :[ It really needs to stop. I was almost going to take a vicodin last night to make it stop but I decided not to. Blehhhh. Sometimes I really hate being a girl.
Anyways, I'm not thrilled that I have to work tonight, because Hollister is teh suck. I wish it was easier to find a new job :[
Saturday is Madina Lake, and I still want to go really bad, but I don't know if Joe and Nick are going so I may end up going by myself(which is never fun). I REALLY want to see Madina Lake though, cause they're such awesome guys, and Nathan is really hot lol. nieh, oh well.
On a side note, I'm kinda getting tired of being single. I really don't like it all that much. In the past I used to LOVE being single, cause I could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted to. I'm sure there's plenty of guys out there that I might want to date, but I'm so freaking picky that nothing ever comes around. And besides the fact that I still love Jason dearly, and that kind of prevents me from even looking, cause what I really want to do is be with him. Well, most of the time anyways. I am starting to develop little crushes on guys, however I don't know how to make an attempt to hang out with them, or ask them to go get coffee or just anything...I've lost my touch and my wild side it seems.
I'm not quite sure what happened...I used to be so outgoing, and I used to have a ton of friends, and now I'm extremely shy and I have like no friends lol. Maybe I should consider going back up to Vermont where most of my friends are. I used to be happy up there(minus the bad weather).
Hmph. My life just seems like it's all over the place lately...
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[21 Mar 2007|10:21pm] |
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So I haven't written in here in quite some time, and I had the bright idea the other day to see if I still had my journal, and I still doooooo! I was quite certain that it had gotten deleted, but apparently it never got deleted.
So a lot has gone on since the last time I wrote in here...
Jason and I had our ups and downs, but things are good now[we aren't dating, but still very good friends]. I almost failed out of school, but I'm back at home now taking courses at a community college. I can't say that I've really done anything exciting. I go to school and work, and that's about it. My social life has kinda gone down to nil, because I kind of have shitty friends here.
I miss my friends up in VT a lot. Like A LOT. If I didn't hate the weather up there so much I think I would probably move up there and live with Alexa and Chris, or Chelsie and Dana. And Darin...ohhhhh how I miss that kid. He's quite possibly one of my best friends. The fact that I'm five hours away from all of them sucks the big one.
Maybe I should start making more friends here? lol.
Then again, why should I, when I kind of want to move farrr away from here. Bleh, I dunno. CT just sucks, because I've lost touch with so many of my high school friends which=only 2 or 3 friends for Kait in CT lol, and it's too cold and all that jazz. I reallllllllllly want to move to Florida.
Someday I will...
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[15 Oct 2004|12:19pm] |
You are the color red. You are the most
controversial of all the colors. You are often
easily angered, but as easily as you got
excited, you come down. When angered, do you
have the tendency to be malicious? Afterwards,
do you end up begging for forgiveness? Maybe.
But you're incredibly generous, and, odd
enough, needy. You love to hate, and
sometimes, you hate to love. This color
describes you as generally edgy. When in a bad
situation, you're pessimistic, and when you're
in a good situation, you're extremely
optimistic. You're painfully tempermental, and
sometimes it hurts the ones you love. But with
an exciting and stimulating attitude, you enjoy
talking to people and being social. But aside
from your bold and outgoing attitude, you're
attention-needing and attention-getting. This
color is associated with lust and desire--and
you are both lust and desirous. You're a
protective person when it comes to the people
you love. You're incredibly sharp-witted and
powerful (not to mention intelligent!).
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[08 Oct 2004|01:01pm] |
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